Tuesday, March 23, 2010

PostSecret: 3/21 Secrets

So I was reading this past week's PostSecret this morning and found a few secrets I found amusing.  I don't always like to visit their website because I find myself getting depressed reading all the secrets. I'm just a softie that way, and... okay, not all secrets are depressing, some are funny, some make me wanna gag, and some are just plain WTF?! But every now and then, when the mood strikes and I do venture into PostSecret land, I always seem to find those very few secrets that make me smile :D


On the back: "At Least I Signed Out Afterwards"


This is for all my friends who have escaped 'work'


I will totally throw a party for EVERYONE too!
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Monday, March 22, 2010

The Porn

So my friend posts a message that stated that he was angry for wasting 3 hours... so then, curious as I am, I asked why.  His answer?:



"Long story....but the porn was good!!  LOL"



HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That cracked me up.



I just had to share the uber-randomness.

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Despair

"All my life I believed I knew something. But then one strange day came when I realized that I knew nothing, yes I knew nothing. And so words became void of meaning. I have arrived too late at ultimate uncertainty."
-Ezra Pound



"Man dies of cold, not of darkness."
-Miguel de Unamuno



"Now, God be praised, that to believing souls gives light in darkness, comfort in despair."
-William Shakespeare

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Sunday, March 21, 2010

Why Voodoo?

Okay, so somebody just asked me, 'What's up with you and this whole voodoo thigh?  Why voodoo?'  I can't really explain why.  I suppose that Voodoo (the word) stuck with me after reading an Anne Rice novel called The Witching Hour. This particular book made such an impact in my life, that from the moment I read it, I pretty much became obsessed with anything and everything about the supernatural and anything and everything related to it. For many many years, since like, 1997 I think, I've been known around the internet as Voodoo Banshee. I always refer to Voodoo Banshee as  my alter ego, because... it really is. And before you ask me: No. I'm not a narcissist.


After that, I went OCD with the whole voodoo thing. In 2003, I decided to make a second LiveJournal account for myself under the username and after that, I went as far as purchasing my own domain name. Unfortunately, voodoobanshee.com was already taken. Imagine my outrage at that! LOL. I did inquire about purchasing it, but I did not have the appropriate funds for that (yeah, right, like I had $5,000 just lying around somewhere at the time.) So then, I started thinking... maybe VoodooBanshee can just be my alter ego/username for everything and I can purchase a separate domain name that has the word voodoo in it. And that's how Voodoo Envy was born.


How did I come up with the name? Easy. I had a running joke with someone on LiveJournal who always made fun of my Voodoo username, so I would always tell him: 'You know you just got voodoo envy, you wanna be like my voodoo when you grow up.' HA! So that's how I got the idea. And snagged myself a .com, .net, and .org.


Later on, I found that Hewlett-Packard had a line of PC's and Notebooks called Voodoo Envy 133 notebook PC and Voodoo Omen desktop PC. I remember that I almost bought a voodoo notebook. They were way cool... signature colors, tribal designs, the works.


That'd be how my voodoo came to be; *tee hee* just my little piece of voodoo history for y'all. And now you know, why voodoo. Why not?


*the end*

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Voodoo Queen

I went to Lucille's for lunch this past weekend and I saw this at the bar. Of course, I just had to take a picture. It's all about the Voodoo after all :D

Voodoo Queen


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Friday, March 19, 2010

Still Hard...

To this day, I still find it very hard to be around other children other than my own little Cindy.  I knew when I was diagnosed with Cancer that I would never be able to have any more children- and I was okay, still am okay with that. I have my little angel after all. She is the best daughter a mother could ever ask for.



But, still... I still find it hard to believe that I will never create another beautiful life like hers. And as much as I told myself in the past that I didn't want to have any more children, that I was okay with just the one, the truth is, that in the back of my mind I did want to have at least one more baby.  I still wanted to go through that amazing experience just one more time.



When I was pregnant with Cindy, it was the most beautiful and amazing experience of my life. She was like the text book pregnancy, everything about that time was just absolutely prefect. Even the birth was amazing. I cannot think of one negative thing about that time. I can't even say that I was in any pain... major discomfort, yes, but no real pain.



And now, when I see other babies, I get all emotional without even realizing it. I thought I was past this, but the fact is, that I am still having a hard time with it. Not that I feel any less of a woman, but I do feel somewhat empty. I shouldn't, really I shouldn't. I have everything that I have ever wanted and more. There's really nothing lacking in my life. But I miss that feeling- the one where you stare at yourself in wonder. The feeling that you get when you realized that you have another little life inside of you, so precious... so everything... it's just hard.



And I know that I still have other options out there for me. There's always adoption, but... still... how do I fill that void? Should I even feel that way? Is it wrong of me to feel that way? Is feeling that way make me a bad person? I hope not.



Maybe I'm just being selfish that way. I mean, I have a wonderful life already, I shouldn't be asking for more than what I have already been given. I suppose with time, I will learn cope a little better, but until then...









Current Mood: Sad

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Death of a Slayer

Title: Death of a Slayer
Character(s): Drusilla
Warnings: Violence
Pairings: None
Fandom: Angel the Series
Word count: 933
Rating: R
Disclaimer: (These characters belong to Joss Whedon, The WB, UPN, and FOX). Although I am emoting these characters I did not CREATE them. No copyright infringement is intended nor implied.






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Ring Around The Rosie...

Title: Ring Around The Rosie…
Character(s): Drusilla
Warnings: Violence
Pairings: None
Fandom: Angel the Series
Word count: 901
Rating: R
Disclaimer: (These characters belong to Joss Whedon, The WB, UPN, and FOX). Although I am emoting these characters I did not CREATE them. No copyright infringement is intended nor implied.



 



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What Have I Done...?

Title: What Have I Done…?
Character(s): Illyria, Wesley
Warnings: Violence
Pairings: Illyria/Wesley
Fandom: Angel the Series
Word count: 646
Rating: R
Disclaimer: (These characters belong to Joss Whedon, The WB, UPN, and FOX). Although I am emoting these characters I did not CREATE them. No copyright infringement is intended nor implied.



 



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The Value of Compromise

Title: The Value of Compromise…
Character(s): Angel, Connor
Warnings: Violence
Pairings: None
Fandom: Angel the Series
Word count: 2,762
Rating: R
Disclaimer: (These characters belong to Joss Whedon, The WB, UPN, and FOX).  Although I am emoting these characters I did not CREATE them.  No copyright infringement is intended nor implied.






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In Jeans...

Because it's a sin for any man to look this good. Totally eye candy. I wonder if I could get his number...









In jeans... by ~zakharova on deviantART



 



 



Current Mood: Obsessed

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Remember

By Christina Rossetti



Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more, day by day,
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.

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Saturday, March 13, 2010

Beyond the Anniversary

I'm beat. It was a long day for me & the hubby. But we had fun. I really like my space, but every once in a while... I guess I'm more of the loner type & enjoy doing things by myself. But since yesterday was my wedding anniversary, I did need that human interaction. And it was well worth it. But, I'm so pooped still, got places to go and things to do...



I feel like doing something like rock climbing, base jumping or cliff diving. I should. And I think I will :D - Anyone interested in joining me?









Current Mood: Joy

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Thursday, March 11, 2010

Test

Test Test Test

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Wednesday, March 10, 2010

My Mojo

Yes... I got mojo... lots and lots of mojo...

LOL
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Off to See the Doctor's

Well, I'm off to see my regular doctor now to get all my pre-op stuff out of the way for my surgery next week (nothing major!! Just getting my IV port o cath removed.)



Not too keen on getting it done, cuz yeah, the pain afterward is gonna be a bitch, but I suppose I can safely say that I've been through worse. I'm just a cry baby that way I suppose. I'll probably have to wear a sling or something.  On the bright side, at least my surgery was scheduled BEFORE my wedding anniversary (it's this Friday :D ) so at least that's good.



But first and foremost, before even thinking about setting foot at my doctor's office, I will go to California Pizza Kitchen for some yummy-nummy-nummy food.



Love, and all that jazz...









Current Mood: Devious

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Artistic Prompts {#1}

Prose
Create a character that has an unusual phobia. Write a scene that causes that character to face his fear. (500 words or fewer)



 



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Quote
“Dream as if you’ll live forever. Live as if you’ll die today.” -James Dean



 



Word
Effulgent

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Chapter 4: Gone

Title: Damaged Souls
Character(s): Dana (a vampire slayer)
Warnings: Violence
Pairings: None
Fandom: Angel the Series
Word count: 1,389
Rating: R
Disclaimer: (These characters belong to Joss Whedon, The WB, UPN, and FOX). Although I am emoting these characters I did not CREATE them. No copyright infringement is intended nor implied.






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Chapter 3: Not My Own

Title: Damaged Souls
Character(s): Dana (a vampire slayer)
Warnings: Violence
Pairings: None
Fandom: Angel the Series
Word count: 1,277
Rating: R
Disclaimer: (These characters belong to Joss Whedon, The WB, UPN, and FOX). Although I am emoting these characters I did not CREATE them. No copyright infringement is intended nor implied.






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Chapter 2: Need to Suffer... Need to Bleed...

Title: Damaged Souls
Character(s): Dana (a vampire slayer)
Warnings: Violence
Pairings: None
Fandom: Angel the Series
Word count: 1,394
Rating: R
Disclaimer: (These characters belong to Joss Whedon, The WB, UPN, and FOX). Although I am emoting these characters I did not CREATE them. No copyright infringement is intended nor implied.






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Chapter 1: Pain & Illusions

Title: Damaged Souls
Character(s): Dana (a vampire slayer)
Warnings: Violence
Pairings: None
Fandom: Angel the Series
Word count: 2,332
Rating: R
Disclaimer: (These characters belong to Joss Whedon, The WB, UPN, and FOX). Although I am emoting these characters I did not CREATE them. No copyright infringement is intended nor implied.



 



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Tuesday, March 9, 2010

WTFBBQ!!

I can't believe it's already noon and I'm procrastinating as per the usual.  I need to go to the post office to buy some stamps and what am I doing? Lazing about, finding excuses (pretty lame ones too) to not go.  Seriously, I really need to get my ass moving and out the door. Before I know it, it will be like, 4:00pm and then I won't go at all...



In other news, I  have one more surgery this month to remove my IV port o cath.  I'm so glad I'm getting that thing out, it really gets on my nerves sometimes, especially when I'm sleeping on my stomach and stuff. I have to see my regular doctor tomorrow to do all the pre-op stuff, so that's gonna be a fun filled day (note sarcasm).  But at least that will be the last of the last.



Ack! And there I go again, trying to get out of going to the post office. Maybe if I stop by the store to buy some nummy-yummy gummy bears or something, I'll have enough of an incentive to move and get my butt going...then again, maybe not.  I wonder what else I could use as an incentive.



Bleh, I suck.



Okay, I'm gonna count to three and I'm gonna get moving.  Ready? Okay.



One.



Two.



Thr...









Current Mood: Embarrased

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Monday, March 8, 2010

Death...

Because sometimes it's nice being a deviant... Here's 'Death' from a short one shot comic (which is now being expanded) by YoukaiYume called "Willow".







WiLLOW: Mask by *YoukaiYume on deviantART



 



 



Current Mood: Exhausted

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Lyrics: "Jealous Guy" by John Lennon

I was dreaming of the past.
And my heart was beating fast,
I began to lose control,
I began to lose control,



I didn't mean to hurt you,
I'm sorry that I mad you cry,
I didn't want to hurt you,
I'm just a jealous guy,



I was feeling insecure,
You might not love me any more,



I was shivering inside,
I was shivering inside,



I was trying to catch your eyes,
Thought that you were trying to hide,
I was swallowing my pain,
I was swallowing my pain.



 



 



Current mood: Exhausted

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Dana Point, California

Went out to Dana Point today with a friend and we tried to go whale watching. Unfortunately, the whales weren't as cooperative as we would have liked... so no whales on the horizon, but I did take two really nice pictures with my iPhone, which sorta surprised me since sometimes, when I take pictures with my iPhones I can never keep my hands steady enough for a good picture. Anyway, this is what I got. Kinda gave me a bit of inspiration too. I feel like I should come here more often with my laptop in hand and write to my heart's content. The ocean does give me that really peaceful feeling, like, nothing else in the world matters other than the right now.  It felt nice. I think I will do just that in the weeks to come...



[By the way: the images are quite large when you click on them... just FYI. :)]



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Current Mood: Happy

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