I was dreaming of the past.
And my heart was beating fast,
I began to lose control,
I began to lose control,
I didn't mean to hurt you,
I'm sorry that I mad you cry,
I didn't want to hurt you,
I'm just a jealous guy,
I was feeling insecure,
You might not love me any more,
I was shivering inside,
I was shivering inside,
I was trying to catch your eyes,
Thought that you were trying to hide,
I was swallowing my pain,
I was swallowing my pain.
Current mood: Exhausted
I am still unsure if I will be able to participate in this year's NaNoWriMo. I am hopeful, but realistically, I may not be able to complete it. I am still debating if I should give it a try either way... I suppose I should start making descisions soon since November 1st is just around the corner. Who knows? I just might make it this year...
I've been trying to figure out what to blog about these past few days, and I find that my inspiration has taken an extended vacation. It never came back from Vegas (I was there in mid-March)... for all I know it's gambling all my good ideas away.
Wish it would come back though. I haven't been able to write anything worth-a-lick. It annoys me, because I was doing so well with my novel, and now... now inspiration has deserted me for the party/nightlife that is Vegas.
I wonder what I can do to bring it back. I'm sure once it's had it's fill of booze, gambling and partying it will come crawling back to me. I just hope it's soon. So far, I've had some pretty boring and uneventful evening.
Maybe I should start posting some prompts, and writing some drabbles here and there. Maybe that would get the creative juices flowing... 'Mo' (new favorite word!), I'll keep you posted kiddies. Hopefully my MIA inspiration will return this weekend and we can get back to business.
<3
Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together
But wer,e not
I play it off but I'm dreamin of you
I'll keep it cool but I'm fiendin.
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
I may seem alright and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
I play it off but I'm dreamin of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Here is my confession
May I be your possesion
Boy I need your touch
Your love kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I can't deny
I play it off but im dreamin of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin
I try to say good bye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not nea
How many of you would be interested in doing some writing/icons/banners/any graphics (no pressure of a comm or anything - just for fun), whenever I post a promt. Be it a word, lyrics, quote, whatever... meh. It can be original work or fandom based, vids, etc.
If you are interested let me know so I can check your journals... or maybe I can have a system where you just post a reply with "Click here for my reply to your prompt :-)"
Meh.
If you are okay with it, I can post your work on my website (VoodooEnvy). But only if you are okay (of course all your work would be copyrighted to you, but I know how touchy people can be...):D
Just let me know. *hearts*
Bus stop, wet day, she's there, I say,
"Please share my umbrella."
Bus stop, bus goes, she stays, love grows
under my umbrella.
All that summer we enjoyed it,
wind and rain and shine.
That umbrella we employed it.
By August, she was mine.
Every morning I would see her waiting at the stop.
Sometimes she'd shop,
and she would show me what she'd bought.
All the people stared as if we were both quite insane.
Someday my name and hers are going to be the same.
That's the way the whole thing started.
Silly, but it's true.
Thinking of a sweet romance
beginning in a queue.
Came the sun the ice was melting,
no more sheltering now.
Nice to think that that umbrella
led me to a vow.
So this past week I've been working on Voodoo Envy, as well as my InuYasha Manga/Anime site. I am really happy with the results on both. There are a few bugs still on Voodoo Envy, but over all I am really happy with the look and content. It's been a work in progress on and off for many years... but finally it's starting to look like what I had envisioned. I have also purchased the .net and .org domains for Voodoo Envy to go along the .com, so that is also good. Voodoo Envy is officially mine! I gotta work on a logo, but that's pretty much last on my list.
Another project that I have been working on is my InuYasha site. I have many plans for the site, it's my 'other baby'. Right now, I am working on a Fan Fiction/Fan Art extension of my House of Inu domain. It's giving me a bit of trouble, but I am confident that I will be able to make it workout. I am also working on creating a social networking community for House of Inu where everyone can post and talk about InuYasha in general, complete with personal blog, extended profiles, private messaging, friends, groups, wires (similar to Facebook's wall), status updates, albums, even forums!. It is a daunting task for just one person, and on top of everything, I still have to upload content on the InuYasha Manga Scanlation site. But I'm making it work.
I couldn't give a time frame of when everything will be up and running. I am thinking that the Inu Social Network would be up and running first. As for the fan fiction/fan art site, that is a bit more complicated, and considering that I am learning how to do most of these things on my, it could take a while, but I am confident in my skills and the help that others have shown. These projects are all for entertainment purposes only, and are funded by me and no one else.
Well, I gotta get going now... I got a little toddler just STARVING for attention now...
Ahh... such is life.
Wow... I've been MIA for so long I don't know where to start. I've been so busy lately with life and such, I haven't had a chance to update anywhere. *sigh*
So what have I been up to? Well, I guess I've been dealing with a little bit of everything. I've been trying to focus on family life, mostly spend more time with my baby girl and my husband. It's been really nice, and I can't wait for the holidays. It's my favorite time of the year.
Disclaimer: I do not own the InuYasha, a Feudal Fairy Tale anime/manga series. InuYasha is the copyright of Rumiko Takahashi/Shogakukan, Yomiuri TV, and Sunrise. I am NOT affiliated in any way with the aforementioned entities. This is strictly for personal, non-commercial use, in accordance with the copyright.
Playground Love
Chapter 3: Life Goes On
It took almost a year to the day since the death of Kagome's father for things to almost get back to normal. His death had been hard on everyone, especially for Kagome. Her father had been her world, her hero, her... well- everything. She had trouble sleeping at night and had a hard time being at home by herself. It took her a long time to just snap out of the daze that she had been since that day at the hospital, but eventually, things went back to normal for her as well.
And through it all, InuYasha was there for her.
Granted, things weren't always easy. The first few nights were actually the worse for him because Kagome did nothing but cry, and he hated that... he always hated when she cried.
The first week she stayed with him after coming from the hospital (the first week of many others), like clockwork, she would walk to his room, get under the covers with him and cry herself to sleep in his arms. He would hold her, and comfort her as best he could, and just let her cry until she fell asleep. He was hurting too, but he didn't let it show. And for six month, neither one wanted to talk about it. After all, what could be said that they didn't already know? So instead of saying that it was okay, that things would get better, he would just hold her and allowed her to cry until she felt better, and she allowed him be there for her.
After that first week, going back to school was hard. Almost everyone in school had found out what had happened. The news had spread like wildfire and thus the rumors spread. InuYasha got into many fights in those first few days, he was lucky he wasn't suspended from fighting so much. He would bluntly tell other kids to 'Shut the hell up!' and 'Mind your own fucking business.'
If the circumstances had been different, Kagome would have smacked him and yelled at him for using such bad language, but to tell the truth, she was thankful. She was sick of everyone saying 'Sorry,' or telling her that 'It would be okay,' or that 'Things are gonna get better.' The truth was, things were far from okay, and things were not gonna get better, not for a long time.
Over time, things got easier, and people just stopped asking.
Over the course of the year, Kagome and InuYasha's friendship grew. They were always together, so much so, that if they were ever apart, someone would always ask a million and one questions as to why. Everyone knew that InuYasha always made sure she was by his side in school, and that he made sure that she made it safely home. And if he, for whatever reason, couldn't be with her, he'd make sure to call her and stayed on the phone with her until she either fell asleep or felt better.
Another habit that they had picked up that year was spending the night at each other's home. At first, it was InuYasha who would come over to Kagome's place and spend the night, just so that she'd have a shoulder to cry on if she needed it. Then it was Kagome who started to spend time at his place.
And that's how it was for a year...
(Two years after the death of Mr. Higurashi...)
"Hey Kagome," InuYasha called from his room, “Which one did you want again? Was it the green one or the blue one?" He was holding two shirts up to his face.
Kagome stuck her head out of the shower curtain and yelled, "What?"
InuYasha rolled his eyes and yelled again, "I asked if you wanted the green one or the blue one!"
"What?!"
Sighing in defeat, InuYasha walked into bathroom and held the two pieces up for Kagome to see. "Green or blue? Which one?"
Kagome giggled and pointed at the green one.
"Took ya long enough." He said with annoyance.
"What?" She said getting back under the water. "I couldn't hear you. It's not like I have demon hearing you know."
"Keh! You do when you want to." He said under his breath as he walked out.
"I heard that!" She yelled back, making InuYasha roll his eyes for the umpteenth time that morning.
It was Saturday, and Kagome was spending the weekend with him and his family as usual. Sango and Miroku were coming by later that afternoon. They were gonna go to the movies and then they were gonna come back to InuYasha's and spend the night.
After fifteen minutes, Kagome came out with a towel wrapped around her hair and another wrapped around her body. InuYasha lay on the bed, remote control in hand, flipping through the million and one channels they had thanks to the satellite dish.
"Took ya long enough," The thirteen year old hanyou said, his eyes never leaving the screen.
"Well excuse me for wanting to be squeaky clean." She said shedding her towel and putting the shirt that InuYasha had laid out for her along with her jeans.
"And who are you to talk, you take longer than me."
"Do not!" He yelled, finally turning his attention to her. His eyes got just a bit wider as he realized that she was only wearing her t-shirt and undies and quickly turned his attention back to the TV, his cheeks holding the tiniest tint of color in them.
Kagome, however, failed to notice.
"You do too!" She yelled back at him.
She pulled her jeans from the bed and put them on. She liked pushing his buttons. The look on his face was worth the silly arguments they always had.
"Whatever. Keep being delusional," He said faking a scowl.
She laughed and then jumped on the bed with InuYasha and started playing with his ears while he flipped through the channels. He had gotten used to her playing with his ears. It was a thing she did to either soothe her nerves, or get him to calm down when he got mad at something, or when she was just plain bored. She was the only one that could do that though, anyone else would be dead meat if they even came three inches too close to his ears. Not even with a stick would he let anyone but Kagome to touch them.
"Hey!" She suddenly yelled making him jump. "Leave it here. I love this show!"
"Damn it Kags, don't do that! You screamed right in my ear."
Kagome gave him an apologetic look and continued to rub his ears, a little softer than before. "Sorry."
They stayed that way for another five minutes until InuYasha's mother called them through the door.
"Kids! Breakfast!"
InuYasha grinned and pulled Kagome out of bed, putting her over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes. "Finally, I'm starving!"
"InuYasha!" Kagome laughed and giggled like a mad child, "Don't drop me!"
He gave her a toothy grin and a 'Keh' for good measure and raced down the hall.
(Later that afternoon...)
SLAP!
"YOU PERVERT!"
Miroku had the stupidest grin on his face while rubbing his red cheek. "Can't you keep your hands to yourself for five minutes?! Geez!"
"I'm sorry dear Sango, you know my curse. This hand of mine has a mind of its own." He said.
"Well, my fist has a mind of its own too and if you don't quit it, I'll make sure it lands on your nose next time around." Sango yelled.
Kagome just giggled while InuYasha had a sly smirk on his face from their spot on the couch.
They had all come back from the mall just in time for supper. Afterwards, they gathered in the living room to watch some movies. Not ten minutes into the movie, Miroku started up with his antics. It was the same routine. He would scoot close to Sango, and then wait a little while before letting his 'cursed' hand find a spot on her bum. Then Sango would turn three shades of red and explode slapping Miroku so hard, it made InuYasha and Kagome feel the pain.
"Quit it you two and just watch the movie already." InuYasha said trying to sound serious.
"That's what I've been trying to get him to-" SLAP! "PERVERT!"
"Miroku!" Everyone yelled in unison.
"That's it! I'm sitting next to Kagome for the rest of the night." Sango said getting up from her spot in the couch. "Move over InuYasha."
Miroku sat by himself for the rest of the night, but at least he didn't get slapped again.
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