New Year's

I may not be awake later to say this... So I will say it now: HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!

Chemotherapy Cycle #5

Greetings from Chemo-land! If I don't seem too happy it's because I'm NOT! D:

I'm almost at the home stretch and yet these chemotherapy cycles keep getting harder and harder to handle.

Also, I woke up on the right side of cranky today and I just don't feel like my normal quirky with the side of chirpyness today...

Bleh. (Can't you tell from my 'happy' no-nonsense state?)

Meh. I'm the youngest one here too and all my chemo buddies are snoozing it off, which is what I should be doing too. Maybe that will improve my mood. If anything it will make these next 5 hours more bearable.

Poetry

Tears
Endless...
Faithless..

Poetry

Rumbling skies...
Forget me not
I am already dead

NaNoWriMo 2009

I am still unsure if I will be able to participate in this year's NaNoWriMo.  I am hopeful, but realistically, I may not be able to complete it.  I am still debating if I should give it a try either way... I suppose I should start making descisions soon since November 1st is just around the corner.  Who knows?  I just might make it this year...

What's happening... now?

Nothing new to report.  I'm actually feeling much better today than I have in a while.  I'm still trying to find a happy medium with my meds, but at least I got something that's working.

Work has been okay so far.  Everyone has been super understanding and I'm doing things at my own pace, which is nice.

I'm still feeling pretty tired though... this has been my hardest cycle yet.  Carlos has been doing everything, I almost feel bad.  He's been pulling double daddy/husband duties.  Don't know what I'd really do without him.

Hopefully I'll be feeling much better this weekend, cuz I gotta go buy a costume for the little one.  She wants to be Spongebob :D  - I still don't know what I'm gonna be, but what ever it is, it better be rocking!

Bleh. There's a pillow with my name on it and I can't wait to put my head to.  Nap it is.

*hearts*

Gacela of the Dark Death by Federico Garcia Lorca

I want to sleep the dream of the apples,
to withdraw from the tumult of cemeteries,
I want to sleep the dream of that child
who wanted to cut his heart on the high seas.

I don't want to hear again that the dead do not lose their blood,
that the putrid mouth goes on asking for water.
I don't want to learn of the tortures of the grass,
nor of the moon with a serpent's mouth
that labors before dawn.

I want to sleep awhile,
awhile, a minute, a century;
but all must know that I have not died;
that there is a stable of gold in my lips;
that I am the small friend of the West wing;
that I am the intense shadow of my tears.

Cover me at dawn with a veil.
because dawn will throw fistfuls of ants at me.
and wet with hard water my shoes
so that the pincers of the scorpion slide.

For I want to sleep the dream of the apples,
to learn a lament that will cleanse me of the earth;
for I want to live with that dark child
who wanted to cut his heart on the high seas.

"Unmei no Tori" (運命の鳥 Birds of Fate)

Title: Unmei no Tori (運命の鳥 Birds of Fate)

Author/Illustrator: Rumiko Takahashi

Pages: 32

Description: "The great modern recession that you couldn't see coming. Have you ever wondered... If you could know if the future hold happiness for you or...?"

Date of Publication: March 5th, 2009

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Random

Giving the world random acts of kindness...

Chemotherapy

So I finally started my chemotherapy yesterday.  It was some 4.5 hours, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.  For the most part I was just cold and slightly queazy.  I did get more nauseous as I got home but I got some meds and ginger tea/candy helped bunches.

I haven't been eating as much... just can't stomach the thought.

Nurse told me that one of my chemo drugs (I take two) is the one that makes me crazy nauseous and that I will probably feel the side-effects for the next seven days -oh joy!- I said... "It can't be worse than having morning sickness all day."  It's not.  It's more annoying.


Had my second session  today.  It was only two hours.  Tomorrow is my last session (another two hours) and then I'm done for the  month.

I'll be going back October 6th for my second round of chemo.  Will probably lose my hair then... I'll be rocking though. I look good in any hair style and I always wondered if I had a pretty head.  I'll be sporting the baldie for a while but it will be much fun to play with.  Then I some new hair and I'm hoping its as pretty as my daughter's.

I will go back to work next week -thank GOD!- I'm not one to stay at home all the time and just do nothing productive.  Work will keep my mind off things.  So all it's all good.  Everyone there is understanding and I'm sure the change in atmosphere will do my soul some wonders.  I'm a little apprehensive though, since it's been a long while since I've worked, but I'm sure in a week or two it will be just like old times and I'll be kicking some major booty.  

Anyway... all in all, things are good.  Or as good as they are gonna get.  I'll take it one day at a time and see how I feel later on.

I'll keep you all's posted - XOXO

Sonnet XVII (Soneto XVII) by Pablo Neruda

I do not love you
as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

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No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal, topacio
o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego:
te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras,
secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.

Te amo como la planta que no florece y lleva
dentro de sí, escondida, la luz de aquellas flores,
y gracias a tu amor vive oscuro en mi cuerpo
el apretado aroma que ascendió de la tierra.

Te amo sin saber cómo, ni cuándo, ni de dónde,
te amo directamente sin problemas ni orgullo:
así te amo porque no sé amar de otra manera,

sino así de este modo en que no soy ni eres,
tan cerca que tu mano sobre mi pecho es mía,
tan cerca que se cierran tus ojos con mi sueño.

And life goes on...

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone for your support during this difficult time.  Truly, it means the world to me.

I know I haven't -blogged- about what's been going on (even though I have talked to some of you one-on-one), I just can't find the right words that could express what I've been thinking about lately.  I'm sure I'll be able to sort everything out in my head once this is all over, and I'll be able to share everything then.

Well, I am going in for surgery tomorrow morning and I'll be at the hospital all weekend.  If everything goes well, I should be back home by Monday.

One of my good friends will be updating my Facebook account and Twitter for me so that you all know what's going on with my recovery.  Heck, knowing how I am, I may ask for my iPhone right away so I can go 'live' straight from my hospital bed... :)

Hmmn... well, I'll be at Torrance Memorial Medical Center and for those who have my phone# you can text me and such... I'm sure my husband will text you back with the room number.

Anyway, thank you all again and wish me luck.

Love you all!

Sooo tired.

Eyes are heavy.

Arms feel funny...

Must. Sleep.

*sigh*

& Zzzz's.

Today. Tomorrow. Always.

Today I found out that I have cancer.

I refuse to let this get me down.

I refuse to be scared.

I will beat this.

Inspiration has left the building...

I've been trying to figure out what to blog about these past few days, and I find that my inspiration has taken an extended vacation.  It never came back from Vegas (I was there in mid-March)... for all I know it's gambling all my good ideas away.

Wish it would come back though.  I haven't been able to write anything worth-a-lick.  It annoys me, because I was doing so well with my novel, and now... now inspiration has deserted me for the party/nightlife that is Vegas.

I wonder what I can do to bring it back.  I'm sure once it's had it's fill of booze, gambling and partying it will come crawling back to me.  I just hope it's soon.  So far, I've had some pretty boring and uneventful evening.

Maybe I should start posting some prompts, and writing some drabbles here and there.  Maybe that would get the creative juices flowing...  'Mo' (new favorite word!), I'll keep you posted kiddies.  Hopefully my MIA inspiration will return this weekend and we can get back to business.

<3

Funny?: Life Before the Computer!

• Memory was something that you lost with age.


• An application was for employment.


• A program was a TV show.


• A cursor used profanity.


• A keyboard was a piano.


• A web was a spider's home.


• A virus was the flu.


• A CD was a bank account.


• And if you had a 3 1/2 inch floppy.....you just hoped nobody found out.

Watchmen

Because anatomically correct parts are just yay :D

'Nuff said.

Anonymous Meme

ANONYMOUS

I snagged this from 's journal.

Say anything at all. About you, me or anybody else. A statement, thought or feeling.

[x] comments screened
[x] ip logging off

Once one person starts this, it pops up everywhere lol.

Alphabet Meme

A

- Available: Nope.  Married!! :D

- Age:  27? (Seriously... I forget sometimes.)

- Annoyance: I annoy myself quite often, but I find that two-faced people who pretend to be what they are not when they are around you/talk to you, and then turn around and act completely out of character annoy the heck out of me a whole lot more.

- Allergic: Dimetapp.

- Animal: Cats!  And dogs... yeah, I like dogs.

- Actor: Colin Farrell.

Chapter 1: City of Dreams

 Summary: Kagome is a DJ, InuYasha is a motorcycle designer, Sango is a club bouncer, Miroku a mechanic and Los Angeles is an Island? What happens when you bring all that together under one story? You're about to find out... [Inu/Kag]

Disclaimer: I do not own the InuYasha anime/manga series, *sadly sighs*. InuYasha & Co. belong to Rumiko Takahashi. I am NOT affiliated in any way with the aforementioned entity.

Author's Note: Well, this was my second attempt at a fic. I had posted this a long time ago to Media Miner but I took it down for some reason or another. I think I wanted to re-work the plot or something. Anyway, I think it will be an interesting fic. I have so many plans for this story.

Don't expect super fast updates. I am a mom to a toddler, a wife and I do have a full time job... so sometimes I just can't find the time to write. But I am trying. And I will definitely update as much as I can.

First though, I need to give you a bit of background information for my setting: Los Angeles, the great City of Angels... well, more like the great Island of Angels. That's right! L.A is an island, a big one and it's still part of California. Think of L.A as New York meets Key West, Florida meets Tokyo, Japan. You've got the luxurious high rise condos, the beautiful sandy beaches and beach front property, the wonderful nightlife and the crazy traffic. My own private piece of West Coast heaven... and that's where my story takes place.

Feedback is greatly appreciated.

 

Sushi Love

So Valentines was great. The hubby and I had a nice dinner @ Kai (sushi place), and just chatted and stuff. The baby spent the night @ the inlaws so we had a nice night to ourselves too. Yayness there :)

I did take a picture of our yummy sushi too!

Enjoy.

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Starbucks... Mmmmn

Starbucks, it does a body good. Especially when it's a Berry Chai Iced Tea.

Lyrics: "I Try" by Macy Gray

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together
But wer,e not
I play it off but I'm dreamin of you
I'll keep it cool but I'm fiendin.
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
I may seem alright and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
I play it off but I'm dreamin of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

Here is my confession
May I be your possesion
Boy I need your touch
Your love kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I can't deny
I play it off but im dreamin of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin
I try to say good bye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not nea

Rain... rain...

Wow... nuff said.

Writing/Graphic Prompts

How many of you would be interested in doing some writing/icons/banners/any graphics (no pressure of a comm or anything - just for fun), whenever I post a promt.  Be it a word, lyrics, quote, whatever... meh.  It can be original work or fandom based, vids, etc.

If you are interested let me know so I can check your journals... or maybe I can have a system where you just post a reply with "Click here for my reply to your prompt :-)"

Meh.

If you are okay with it, I can post your work on my website (VoodooEnvy).  But only if you are okay (of course all your work would be copyrighted to you, but I know how touchy people can be...):D

Just let me know. *hearts*

Movie Trailers: X-Men Origins - Wolverine

X-Men Origins: Wolverine

Copyright © 2009 20th Century Fox

Super Bowl XLIII - Steelers, baby!

I know... I'm a little late in posting this.  What can I say?  I really have no excuse.  Just been too lazy/tired to do any real blogging as of late.  I had meant to post something before the game started, but I just couldn't find the time (other than posting a few 'tweets' here and there via iPhone.

Anyway, for your viewing pleasure (for those who care about the Steelers and sports anyway) here's a few celebratory photos from Sunday's game.  Hope y'all enjoy.

(FYI: You can enjoy these images better if you view the slideshow directly on Voodoo Envy.)

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Sleeping Angels

So the little munchking was being a sleepy head all day today and yesterday. I think she might be coming down with something. I don't want her getting sick.

Everyone at her school has come down with something or other... And she *just* got better from the flu. I don't want her getting sick again. She's already been sick 4 times this winter season.

Anyways. I just don't want her getting sick, yet again.

:(

Secret Lives of Condoms

Condoms... the things they do when they think no one is looking...

Wine... Mmm...

Just enjoying some wine with friends...

Wordpress/LiveJournal Cross Posts?

So I finally got around to to fixing the cross-posting feature on my personal blog and LiveJournal.  Now I won't have to go back and forth!!! No more missed posts, or blah blah stuff like that. 

I'm so excited.  I know- I know- it doesn't take much these days to make me happy.

On to life events...

So I've been playing Guitar Hero World Tour like crazy.  My little munchkin has gotten a real kick at watching mommy strum her stuff.  Its fun, but I think she just likes the noise though, and watching mommy make a fool of herself.  But it's hilarious to watch.  I still suck though, I just don't have enough time to play like I want to.  I'll never be any good at this rate.  I so wanna play against my friends online. HA!  [loves PS3 just for that reason].

Work has been hectic as always.  My desk is back to looking like national disaster zone.  At least I am not sick, like everyone else seems to be *knocks on wood*.  It's like bio-warfare here at the office.  Everyone's desk is a biohazard zone.

In other news, I did end up getting my 'WTF?' stamp.  HA!  Lots of people got a kick on that one.  Now, every time I get some B.S. document that makes no sense to me at all... I send it back with a 'WTF?' stamp.  Everyone wants one now.  I think I started a trend.

OMG!  And what's with everyone using 'meh' these days?  That's like my word!!!! LOLS!  I use that more than I really should.  I know it's not really a word and what not, but heck, it's fun to use when there is really no comment or I just feel like whatever.  And while we're on the subject of words... you should check out this post (Friday Fun Meme) on my blog.   It's a little word play deal.  It's fun.

Personal life has been good so far.  Health wise, it was a bad year for me last year.  I had to deal with a lot of issues that had set me back not only emotionally but also physically (damn that weight!), but after finishing physical therapy (not to mention countless chiropractor visits) I got the clear from my doctor to go back to the gym.  I start next week.  So I'm excited.  The people that are in the 'know' have been very supportive and I will forever be grateful to them.  Had to quit Japanese class unfortunately because of this, but I've been keeping up with it.  I got to Japanese Meetups and the whole nine!  Its really quite funny... yes indeedy.

I've been also hanging out a lot with my friends.  In fact, we went to a karaoke bar a while back, went ice skating (which I should have NEVER done), movies, bars, Hollywood, and this Friday my gal-friends and I are hosting a tea party/wine tasting/cheese tasting party.  Yes, I know, we are corny, but heck- it's fun.  We had a movie night last time, we had to do something different this time. (Dana-chan!  Frenchanine!  I love you :D)

So all and all, things have been good so far.  I guess I should have seen this post coming.  I didn't post anything for a while and I had been itching to talk about what had been going on in my life.  So there you have it folks.  That's my story...  so far.

<3

Amazon Movies & TV Previews

Nifty... thought I'd share.

Lyrics: "Bus Stop" by The Hollies

Bus stop, wet day, she's there, I say,
"Please share my umbrella."
Bus stop, bus goes, she stays, love grows
under my umbrella.

All that summer we enjoyed it,
wind and rain and shine.
That umbrella we employed it.
By August, she was mine.

Every morning I would see her waiting at the stop.
Sometimes she'd shop,
and she would show me what she'd bought.
All the people stared as if we were both quite insane.
Someday my name and hers are going to be the same.

That's the way the whole thing started.
Silly, but it's true.
Thinking of a sweet romance
beginning in a queue.

Came the sun the ice was melting,
no more sheltering now.
Nice to think that that umbrella
led me to a vow.

A Few Random Quotes

Here are a few radom quotes I found, they are meaningful... to me.

"Reasonable people adapt to the world. Unreasonable people persist in trying to adapt the world to themselves. Therefore, all progress depends on unreasonable people." --George Bernard Shaw

"Personally, I prefer a politician who is curious enough to have smoked pot and tried cocaine or LSD. It is a small mind indeed that's afraid to try something new or unknown."

"I don't know the secret of success, but the secret of failure is to try to please everybody." --Bill Cosby

"Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss people." --Admiral Hyman G. Rickover

"Work like you don't need money, Love like you've never been hurt, and Dance like no one's watching."

The last quote is the most meaningful to me, and I'll tell you why:

On work:  I work my ass off, and have some really, bad-blah-urk, and horrible days at work, but I can honestly say that I love my job... And yes, I could't tell you how much money I make an hour (or per year... you'll have to ask my husband that question), and I really forget when payday is cuz I hardly ever pay attention, and all of this because I love my job. I  love the people that I work with and my bosses are great people.  How many poeple can truly say they love their job?  And, seriously, the corporate world can be a harsh place at times, but heck, we have fun too. 

On love: Once upon a time I was young and naive.  I trusted blindly and I was insecure and I was hurt, not once but twice by people I loved.  I was betrayed by people who I considered my friends.  For a while there I had lost myself, I had become distant and a bit cold, but somehow I found my way back again.  I found that I could still love and that those who hurt me before weren't worth the trouble or my tears.  Love found me again, old wounds healed and the guy who had hurt me the most was able to mend the broken pieces of my heart somehow.  Maybe he was trying to find himself too.  I'm still somewhat naive, I'm a dork and I act like a teen (a very mature, cute and intelligent teen), but that's just part of who I am... my charm I guess.

On dancing?:  hey!  I'm young, and even if I was 90, I would still try and have fun.  I mean come one, I've only got one life to live here, why waste it when I can make wonderful memores for myself, family and friends?  HA!  Yeah yeah, we should all play Guitar Hero World tour together, you'll really see me getting jiggy with it... I'll show you my groove.  You'll like it.

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Movie Trailers: Watchmen

Watchmen

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Copyright © 2009 Warner Brothers

New Hair!!!

So, I decided to do something different with my hair... I loved the blonde.  It was fun, but I needed a change (as per the usual).

LOL

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Friday Fun Meme

Ten Favorite Words (That I Actually use on a Regular Basis)

This FFM is pretty straightforward...

List your top-10 favorite words that you actually use on a regular basis.  Setting aside dude, moron, idiot, and Cartman, here's my list:

1. Indeed


2. Accordingly


3. Monkeys (when referring to my dear friends :) )


4. Albeit


5. Meh (not actually a word, but I use it more than enough to be considered one in my vocabulary)


6. Be-Are-Be ('brb' - again, not a word-word, but I use it A LOT)


7. Spiffy


8. Bleh (see number #5 for explanation)


9. Shenanigans


10. Besos (it translates to 'kisses' in Spanish)

Honorable mentions (words I like, but don’t necessarily use all the time):

• Ubiquitous


• Bizarre


• Obstinate


• Ludicrous (no... not the singer/artist/etc.)


• Beau

Sooooo Tired...

Today was just one of those days where I just feel like it's never gonna end... even now, that's like....12:21 in the fregging morning, the day still feels like it's never gonna end. I should probably be sleeping, but... bleh. I don't really feel like I can. It's just gonna be one of those weird nights again, I suppose.

Hmm.. maybe some music will help.

Meh

Meh.

That is all.

Old Meme: My Thotz In Plain Colour

Here's a deviantART meme I did back on February 19, 2008...  It was, interesting.