Today I completed my last chemotherapy cycle. I am incredibly relieved & incredibly nauseous.
For some reason, I have mixed feelings about it, but over all I am very happy to be able to close this chapter of my life and put this behind me.
Slowly, let me start fresh...
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Inspirarion
"Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence." -Helen Keller
"You can't just sit there & wait for people to give you that golden dream; you've got to get out there & make it happen for yourself" - D. Ross
"You can't just sit there & wait for people to give you that golden dream; you've got to get out there & make it happen for yourself" - D. Ross
Thursday, January 21, 2010
I Loved you
By Alexander Pushkin
I loved you; and perhaps I love you still,
The flame, perhaps, is not extinguished; yet
It burns so quietly within my soul,
No longer should you feel distressed by it.
Silently and hopelessly I loved you,
At times too jealous and at times too shy.
God grant you find another who will love you
As tenderly and truthfully as I.
A Dream
By Edgar Allan Poe
In visions of the dark night
I have dreamed of joy departed-
But a waking dream of life and light
Hath left me broken-hearted.
Ah! what is not a dream by day
To him whose eyes are cast
On things around him with a ray
Turned back upon the past?
That holy dream- that holy dream,
While all the world were chiding,
Hath cheered me as a lovely beam
A lonely spirit guiding.
What though that light, thro' storm and night,
So trembled from afar-
What could there be more purely bright
In Truth's day-star?
When We Two Parted
By Lord Byron
When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted,
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.
The dew of the morning
Sank chill on my brow—
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.
They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me—
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well:—
Long, long shall I rue thee
Too deeply to tell.
In secret we met—
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?—
With silence and tears.
Sleep Talking Man
I couldn't stop LMAO when I first watched this.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Devil May Cry: Snow Angels
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Draw With Me
Draw With Me
Story & Animation by Mike Inel
A story about a girl and a boy separated by an unbreakable glass. I first came across this on deviantART. At the time it was a work in progress, then Mike Inel came back and finished it. I was so happy to see the finished product. It's a really cute and sad story... I just had to post it.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
So Crazy & Lazy
So I bought tickets to Anime Expo today (a 4-Day Pass) and I am also going to purchase a 4-Day Pass for Comic-Con if it's still available. Am I crazy? Maybe, but I really wanna go. I didn't get to go to Comic-Con last year and I was really looking forward to it. Even though San Diego is quite far for me.
But, oh well.
The L.A. Convention Center is like 20 minutes away so it's not too bad. And I was even able to get a friend of mine to tag along. Last year, my friend Bob came with me to Anime Expo. It was funny how it all happened. I basically called the day of, and said: "Hey, wanna come to Anime Expo with me?" and he was all like, "Sure! What the heck is that?" I LOLz for like 3 whole minutes before I was able to reply. But that's Bob for ya. Willing to go anywhere if he's bored out of his mind. He did have a good time, though. Maybe I can get him to tag along again. Hee hee.
Nothing else to report. Doing well today, so I'm just trying to enjoy a day of semi-normalcy. Not too hungry, but it's okay. I'll ask the hubby to bring home some ice cream on his way back from work. I kinda want to fill my tummy with some yummy dairy goodness. I also did a few stretches to get the muscles moving. I can't move around as much because I'm pretty much either in bed or on the couch for most of the day, but today I felt well enough to stretch a bit and get the muscles moving.
I really hope this feeling lasts until my next cycle. That would be awesome. If it does, maybe I can go out to a movie or to dinner with the hubby. It's been a long while since we've done something. Maybe I'll even be able to go to the park with the baby, that would really make her happy.
Oh! I did a little bit of writing too. Only like 20 minutes worth. Nothing great, just trying to jot some ideas down before they flew out of my mind. Most of them were for my latest project... a novel turned graphic novel. I am no artists/illustrator, but I think this could really work if I can find someone that is willing to share the vision with me - we'll see if that works out, otherwise, I'll have to spend a whole lot of time trying to learn to draw as well (HA!). Later tonight I'm gonna call my friend who works for Aurora Publishing, he's a producer (he also worked for TOKYOPOP for a while), I want to see what he thinks about my story and see if it's got potential. I'm thinking yes. Last year at Anime Expo I gave him a little blurb about my original novel idea, and he had mentioned to me then that it sounded great and that it could work as a manga too.
Anyway, so yeah, that's what's been going on with me so far. Nothing amazingly great, just little mundane stuff that really means a lot to me because it's stuff out side my current 'forced-norm'.
Well, I'm off to watch some T.V and play some games on my iPhone to pass the time. Then nap-time, and after that... I'm not sure yet, but I'm hoping it involves some yummy ice cream and a movie :)
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